You're likely right about my Lady. She always was pretty encouraging with me.
[He tries not to go into another lovey-dovey mini-rant even if part of him wants to.]
I never realized that your Lady might have those kind of feelings about her superhero role. It never seemed like she was miserable at all, but I guess she masked that.
[It really brings a new light to Ladybug that he never realized. Huh.]
Miserable is a strong word. She had self doubts. Its rare that she isn't confident and sure, but it happens, and that's part of what I do. Ladybug is the brains, and I'm the heart. When her feelings get her in a state, I help her center. When I want to rush in, she pulls my tail to rethink.
Its why the synching is important. Not just in combat, but being able to step in and do what your partner needs to make sure you can handle everything with the job.
[Another nod.] My Lady also tended to pull my tail back whenever I wanted to rush in too. So there's some similarities.
We were able to take down Akumas back home, but you're right. If my Lady and I are gonna be any help here, we need to get back in synch with each other.
Paris is...easier. In part because Plagg and Tikki monitored powers and helped with learning some of the necessary instincts. Now it's all on us to make sure everything is covered and we can kind of rely on what we're been through, but there's tripping points.
That's not a yes. Its something you should do anyways.
I need to talk to My Lady because I'm on the fence. Its not an easy job and while I don't regret it, I'm also very Batman in that I'm the headcase who uses this as a coping mechanism for my issues.
I know it's not. There's a lot at stake when it comes to Akumas and protecting everyone in general. Besides, I don't need to go full time as Chat. I can just be the back-up. Somebody to call in if you need help. Or, be a distraction.
[He's cool with only going Chat sometimes if it'll make him feel better. He just wants to help.]
Aren't you taking therapy? If not, you really should. 'Cause just relying on being Chat's not healthy, man.
If we need back up, that's when its most dangerous. Also, I need to train you how to be a distraction. There IS an art to the skill, you know.
Learning how to pun will help. [Okay, might be teasing a touch.]
And yes, I'm going to therapy. And I know its not healthy. Plagg does too, its why he encouraged my rebellion. So I'd do things good for me without a cat suit.
But there are a lot of issues. Like would you really have pegged Adrien Agreste as Chat Noir based on personality?
I have yet to figure out if she wants to be Ladybug or date her, but I'm grateful she's easily distracted. She misses a lot, but when she figures me out on something, she's usually pretty on point.
But its like...somewhere between Chat and how I am with you two is....probably me.
Maybe you should ask her. I'm sure she would be willing to tell you.
Sounds about right. [Part of him had suspected there was more to him than he got to see and he was right. He just had no idea he was Chat. In hindsight, it was pretty obvious and he should have figured it out sooner. Oh well.]
I'm a bit afraid to. It might prompt her to 'confess.' [Making air quotes.] And I'm not quite ready for that conversation yet. I still haven't figured out how much is genuine feelings of attraction and how much is she THINKS she should have a crush on me. Either way, I see her as more of a sister than anything, so it gets uncomfortable real fast without knowing how I need to handle it.
Yeah.
But it's like....I know Chat as the coping mechanism isn't good. And I have some pretty bad identity issues at this point. But I have them because I'm trying to work through my other issues and Chat could do what Adrien couldn't. So like. I'm adding different issues, but at least I'm working through other issues instead of being stagnant. And at least I can do productive things WITH Chat while dealing with the issues instead of being an anxiety ridden mess constantly micromanaging my own behavior.
So honestly the life and death stuff doesn't seem like a big deal to me because I'm kind of on the edge of an existential breakdown every so often.
....I really didn't plan to have this talk today, I'm pretty sure I'm dumping a lot on you and I almost killed you the other day, I'm sorry I'm just....a total disaster.
[There is actually a momentary look of surprise. Then his shoulders hunch, and then he has a small, shy smile that's more fit on Adrien's face than Chat as the meaning really sinks in.]
....yeah. Yea, it's....it's nice to be honest about that.
[If he didn't already know the truth, that would have looked weird. But instead it's kind of comforting in a strange way to see past the usual act Chat puts up.]
I bet. I know I would have liked to be able to confine in other people about being Chat besides Plagg.
[He chuckled.] Also nice someone else actually knows him. I'm pretty sure everyone thinks Plagg is a lot more awesome than he is since I'm usually only talking about the nice things when I mention him.
Yeah and I have a feeling if he shows up, he'll get spoiled at first before everyone wises up.
[He makes a face.] I don't know how he could like Camembert. That stuff is gross. He gave me some one time for a birthday present and I only ate it to be nice.
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[He tries not to go into another lovey-dovey mini-rant even if part of him wants to.]
I never realized that your Lady might have those kind of feelings about her superhero role. It never seemed like she was miserable at all, but I guess she masked that.
[It really brings a new light to Ladybug that he never realized. Huh.]
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Its why the synching is important. Not just in combat, but being able to step in and do what your partner needs to make sure you can handle everything with the job.
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We were able to take down Akumas back home, but you're right. If my Lady and I are gonna be any help here, we need to get back in synch with each other.
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Having every advantage is important.
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[He's okay with having lessons on being Chat Noir from him.]
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[Basically as Chat he was always winging it and had relied on his baton more than he likely should have. Especially against Renard.]
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[At least Renard hadn't been formally trained in years.]
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I need to talk to My Lady because I'm on the fence. Its not an easy job and while I don't regret it, I'm also very Batman in that I'm the headcase who uses this as a coping mechanism for my issues.
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[He's cool with only going Chat sometimes if it'll make him feel better. He just wants to help.]
Aren't you taking therapy? If not, you really should. 'Cause just relying on being Chat's not healthy, man.
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Learning how to pun will help. [Okay, might be teasing a touch.]
And yes, I'm going to therapy. And I know its not healthy. Plagg does too, its why he encouraged my rebellion. So I'd do things good for me without a cat suit.
But there are a lot of issues. Like would you really have pegged Adrien Agreste as Chat Noir based on personality?
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No actually. But that's why I acted the way I did before. Who would believe a fun-loving guy like me to be that total stuck-in-the-mud cat?
[Granted he knows now it's not the way to do it.]
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Yyyeah.
Chat is an act like max ten percent of the time. And that's to reassure civilians by acting like things are going smoothly when they're bad. Mostly.
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[He has a feeling he might drive Alya up the wall if he does it too much.]
Yep. Gotta keep the civs from panicking.
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I mean, you and Chloe are literally the only ones in Paris with a shot of making the guess from personality.
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Somehow I doubt Chloe would have ever figured it out. That girl's practically in her own little world it seems like.
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But its like...somewhere between Chat and how I am with you two is....probably me.
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Sounds about right. [Part of him had suspected there was more to him than he got to see and he was right. He just had no idea he was Chat. In hindsight, it was pretty obvious and he should have figured it out sooner. Oh well.]
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Yeah.
But it's like....I know Chat as the coping mechanism isn't good. And I have some pretty bad identity issues at this point. But I have them because I'm trying to work through my other issues and Chat could do what Adrien couldn't. So like. I'm adding different issues, but at least I'm working through other issues instead of being stagnant. And at least I can do productive things WITH Chat while dealing with the issues instead of being an anxiety ridden mess constantly micromanaging my own behavior.
So honestly the life and death stuff doesn't seem like a big deal to me because I'm kind of on the edge of an existential breakdown every so often.
....I really didn't plan to have this talk today, I'm pretty sure I'm dumping a lot on you and I almost killed you the other day, I'm sorry I'm just....a total disaster.
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It's okay, dude. Better to let it all out than bottling it up. [Funny he should say that considering he was starting to do the same before the storm.]
I'm just glad everything's cleared up between us and it's cool now.
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....yeah. Yea, it's....it's nice to be honest about that.
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I bet. I know I would have liked to be able to confine in other people about being Chat besides Plagg.
[He kinda wishes Plagg was here now.]
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[He makes a face.] I don't know how he could like Camembert. That stuff is gross. He gave me some one time for a birthday present and I only ate it to be nice.
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